to do

i'm going to brainstorm on what to do on my last days in china that i don't have money.

1) recording my voice

2) write a short story

3) paint

4) watch movies

5) watch sex and the city? i've been watching it all my life and whenever i get bored. sex and the city is my life. i remember when i was relocated in cebu, i watched this when i was alone. i wasn't happy back there. for real. i was lost.
as i watch sex and the city now, i could see the abortion issue. miranda hobbes was contemplating about abortion. well, if you are in that age (35). i don't think you should consider abortion. as for my age, i should. i still should. unless, of course, i am happily married.

6) chatting with my bf in french. oh my boyfriend. someone i could really really depend on. he really loves me. i'm at the sex and the city episode where carrie saw the engagement ring aidan was supposed to give her. she wasn't ready. what was she looking for? at 35?

richard wright: "who needs a wife when you have a life?"
this is sad. i respect everyone's differences but this is a sad truth for people nowadays. they are getting more and more individualistic. they can take being single for life. ok, so lord knows how many times i have cheated on my boyfriend or will cheat more but it's not hurting him anyway. what's worse? having multiple unserious relationships or cheating? when i find out that he is cheating on me, at this point, i can't say i can break up with him. our relationship has been solidified by hardships and trials. we can depend on each other. it's not anymore an "i". it's a "we" and we know that. being married is actually easier on the budget. instead of living separate lives which means separate expenses, it's going to be combined which will be easier. thou shalt pick the right man. and that for me, is my future husband-bajo. he maybe african (coming from a third world country) but his character is perfect for me: hardworking, ambitious, and not a cheater. he's perfect and i love him!