plot man

something stops me from that decision of going back. it's an affair. i can't think logically now. i've been fooled or whatever. he's sleeping and snorring on my bed right now. why is finding men so easy here for me? it's easy to find a man, establish a 'connection' (i think establishing a connection can be a skill now for me). i feel like i got swayed a little bit by the charm of this guy who captured me by his honesty and of course the way he appreciates my beauty. the cynic in me tells me that yeah right, it's just a plot. but for a guy whose got the girls going gaga over him, how can he still be making that 'plot'? so shit, something tells me to stay and that something is just foolish voice inside of me. could he be that sign that i'm looking for? i need more signs