Vajeyjey

No one's reading my blogs. I feel so alone. This is my diary. I am a sex maniac, a hopeless romantic, an ambitious woman, a sensitive kind, somewhat insecure, a passionate idealist, a reckless lover, a cheater, someone with a big heart for those who are needy. you will love me, you will hate me, u will be amazed. u will be aghast. but i'm just looking for friends, real friends. i can be extremely joyful when given attention. i dont need men's attention. im so full of it. men love me. i am vulnerable. women hate me. gays can relate to me. lesbians can be my friends but i can't relate to them. i have so many wants. they are not necessarily needs. it will take a lifetime to know me. im multi-faceted. be with me and u'll be in for a ride;)

Man and the Christmas Ham

Now what am I doing here again? I'm along glancing all around the place for what we may have thought as eligible bachelors, foreign eligible bachelors. I exhanged smiles with one mature-looking guy already. Maybe they sensed that I'm built for the kill, maybe not. Five Filipino men smoking at the bar and making quick glances at me. Soon I'm going to enjoy my Jack Daniel's rib-eye steak. I can't think but I can sense. They don't look old. They actually look like in their mid-30's. The question that I have in mind now is, "Are they on a hunt?" Across my table right there sitting at the bar, I can see a man and a woman sitting together and sitting together is what all they could do. Now the woman starts texting. She must be as bored as hell. I think. The man is also as bored, I am so sure. A man wearing a suit enters and stares at my belly? What? I must be wearing a wrong dress. Or I must be too conscious. He wasn't staring at my belly, he just looked at this cute laptop. The woman who went behind him with a kid looked at the laptop too, so it's not me, not the belly. Just the laptop. Tell me, why do the dumb ugly women get the rich guys and I can't? I took another bite of the honey-glazed Jack Daniel's ribs (costing a holy P700!), it's sweet and I kinda' not into this. I am slowly imagining Christmas ham. Now wait, I am not yet finished. I can see another Caucasian-looking guy, a fat one. He's sitting beside a very Filipino-looking talking about something serious. Here is another woman who just asked me if I'm already done. She looks so glamourous and I'm sure the food my rent would only cost her pair of velvet shoes. I was surprised when she got my plate and gave it to the counter. She must be the bar manager. Oh wait, the bored-with-each-other couple is gone and the seat is replaced by a Dora I mean a Darla-looking woman talking to someone on the cell. She may also be curious why I'm here, alone too. I am so waiting for this bald guy with an Arabic accent to turn his back and take a sneak peak at this young lad that is me. I'm turned off by the accent. He also seemed to complain. I have a bad feeling about him. He's X. These Filipino men's faces seem friendlier and they look like they know the deal on things. Except that no one's looking at me anymore. I should have gone to Hard Rock Cafe. No one seems to be paying attention at me. I can even leave now except that I don't have the guts to. This irritating waitress with a panda on her back was just pacing back and forth in front of me. At last, a guy waiter took note of me making faces, rolling my eyes. Oh my God. My heart just raced when I saw this gorgeous bald guy, Caucasion-looking (I couldn't even spell now, I mean Caucasian) just came in wearing his reading glasses. Glasses. It reminded me first of Smith and then my own boyfriend, Angelo. He is so boring but he loves me. I lost P800 because of the fucking piece of meat. It's fine. Ok, look at me bald guy, stop looking at the phone, don't look at your phone because no one will text you. You are in a foreign country. The 4 men in front of me are boisterous, annoying. I am getting pissed at them. I am not gonna look pathetic here waiting for that guy to take notice of me. It will be his loss. Bye now, peace out!

now what's my problem? i've been eating takoyaki balls for lunch for 2 days in a row. last night i ate kormak chicken at an indian restaurant. frivolous. what i'm going to tell you right now is not about food. you only talk about food and all those little "nonsense" (i brand it nonsense because they are nonsense for me now) when you have bigger pesky issues about yourself. im starting to dislike my job. i earn a lot through it but this is not what can make me happy. the unhappiness that stems from this situation affects the people around me. i don't wanna talk to them. i often get pissed at my boyfriend. he's the shock absorber of all this unhappiness and low self-esteem. i just want to rest. i want to take a break but clearly, i have no money. last night, my bf and i fought and we fought so hard and very hurtful words were said. now i feel so alone. he mentioned all the help that he did (well his mom's help). i want to ask God what is keeping me and him together. we have so many differences and it's painful already. i am resenting him for not being able to fulfill my fantasies of a financially stable guy who can give me all my financial needs. i see him as a failure. GOD i need your help.

HAPPY

Today the cafe au lait made me happy. Maybe, maybe not. I really am not sure what made me happy. Is it Nanay giving us hope of going to the US as caregivers? Is it realizing the happiness I can get from what I am doing just interviewing applicants? I am really unsure. I remember though, that this is supposed to be my "Power Day" according to Capricorn 2010 Horoscope. I hope everyday can be a "Power Day" then. I think being happy for me is appreciating all the little things that I have for NOW and looking forward to MORE things to come. If I get too "cozy" about the "now", then I won't be striving and looking forward to a more beautiful future. Hey, I still want to be part of a US TV Series. I am serious. Sometimes it is not wise to share dreams with other people because they will just envy you and pull you down. Anyway, whatever they do, you should just have unwavering faith of tomorrow. Whatever means possible, I will go to New York. New York and then Europe. Sounds like a plan? I will be a Broadcast Journalist or an actress there. I really still love acting. This will make me happy for life.

i dont wanna

i got this phrase from watching sex and the city. a little boy told this in a bratty tone to his parents. "i dont wanna sit beside a lady, i dont wanna!" such a cute voice and i always try to use that kind of voice with my boyf/dad who is 4 years younger than me. i am a cougar/baby. mom and i were laughing out load imagining belo baby talking to hayden kho. "yuuuuck!" we both said in disgust. but who cares? as long as ur happy, why care about the way other people sees you. on the other hand, i have a friend who is married and is very good at making appearances, happy couple appearances but actually does not live anymore with her hubby and hates him to the bone. i sometimes care about what other people say but most of the time, i just wanna chill and be carefree like the pantyshield commercial or the ph care billboard where bianca manalo lets the breeze blow her skirt up but nothing really shows. thats why i wanna go to another country because this country has a lot of pain. pain for me is to care so much about what other people say. i wanna do my thing period. i wanna have fun period. wait brb.

Where

Clueless of where the wind is taking me.

celeb

been reading about celebrities and since i am the alleged "wannabe", i feel like for every turn of the page, this is how i'm gonna be. they are rich. that's what i love about being a celebrity, the fact that they are rich. if actors are poor then they would lose half their appeal. people won't envy them that much. who envies theatre thespians who commute from cavite to up diliman for a rehearsal and eats half of the footlong? who? it is always about the money. cont'd

FAT

this is the second time i cried when someone called me fat. my body type is of the rightmost girl. is that fat?

mahal

ikaw lang ang sinisigaw ng puso ko, pag hindi ka nakikita parang hindi ako makahinga. kapag kasama na langit nadarama. ikaw lang ang sigaw ng puso ko at wala nang iba. ikaw lang ang gusto ko makasama gabi at umaga... ikaw lang... gusto kitang makausap at lahat... kahit wag nang kumain. basta kasama lang kita. gusto kong sumama kahit san ka magpunta. ikaw lang ang tinatawag ng puso ko.

Reminder

Christina

tita cristy!

1:35amTintin

hello tin! kamusta

1:38amChristina

secret lang natin tita cristy but i broke up with someone because i got obsessed

when he does not text back i go ballistic

and cant breathe

1:39amTintin

at least that is good that you are conscious of your behavior and took responsibility and did what is right

mana ka kay tito obet mo

ganyan din yan siya dati

1:40amChristina

ha??? please please tell me... maybe i can have a clue

on what to do

1:40amTintin

that is not healthy and you will just drive that person away kasi nakakasakal and irita

1:42amChristina

i erased na lang all his contact numbers on my cell and before i drive him away i will just leave him and leave the country

1:42amTintin

where are you going?

1:42amChristina

he is the only one giving me a sense of security nowadays kc...

i think its some crisis a person experiences at this age? or is it just me?

1:47amChristina

i am applying everywhere but here

1:49amTintin

all of has experiences it our past life that manfifests on who we are today. however, we should always learn from lessons of the past and move on. Do not dwell on it and let it pull you down.

1:50amTintin

Ikaw, learn from your mom's life and do not look back at any of the crisis you experienced. You are a strong, intelligent and talented woman who can be anybody you want to be.

At this point in your life, set your priorities and goals, and go for it

Tin, need to go I have a lot to do today.

will talk to you later..... love you

be a good girl :)

1:52amChristina

ok thanks i will remember ... thanks tita cristy sigh......

i dont know what to think about this heartbreaking experience. it's like i am numb and i dont know what to think. some people are trying to destroy my relationship with someone i am happy with now. its again the ex's. it's all in the past. what is it with the ex's and what they are trying to do? i think i just experienced karma upfront. i tried to let my ex know how much i hate him for leaving me and i even told the present girlfriend how much i feel. the impact of relationships, of broken promises...of love and love lost. i am counting the days. it is the last day of the month, february 28, and something is not yet over.
am i questioning leonard's feelings for me or am i questioning myself? am i really happy with leonard? he can't even be with me on sundays when i am longing for a special someone. am i really happy with him? now that things are happening to us like this:
chrissiecutie3: i think i went through some karma..
Roselle Papas: why?
chrissiecutie3: an ex texted my bf... "i love u"
Roselle Papas: ohwwww
chrissiecutie3: inaway away ng bf ko yng girl and told her that he's already married then...
Roselle Papas: what girl? u are telling a story in the middle of it all
chrissiecutie3: i texted the girl and asked her if she wants that to happen to her when she gets married... and told her that she is also a woman and that she should know the feeling...
chrissiecutie3: the ex
chrissiecutie3: there are just 3 characters: ex, me and my bf
Roselle Papas: oh ghad...i went through that already
chrissiecutie3: ang sakit but....
chrissiecutie3: instead of breaking up with my guy, i just told him that he knows that i love him...
chrissiecutie3: at the back of my mind, "its his loss"
chrissiecutie3: and i know u went through this with anu's ex
chrissiecutie3: kailangan pala mabilis ka mag isip noh?
Roselle Papas: you have one million contradictions...i wouldnt know how to
Roselle Papas: react
chrissiecutie3: what u mean? where? haha
Roselle Papas: yup...
Roselle Papas: the girl or ex is still around
chrissiecutie3: the ex just texted..
chrissiecutie3: but..
Roselle Papas: wag mo awayin
chrissiecutie3: her last words were... "pagkatapos niyang makuha lahat sa akin, iniwan nya ko."
chrissiecutie3: yes hindi ko nga inaway
Roselle Papas: ohwww tagalog version
chrissiecutie3: teleserye effect yung girl
chrissiecutie3: baka katulong
chrissiecutie3: what happened between u and anu's ex?
Roselle Papas: nothing
chrissiecutie3: anung ending?
Roselle Papas: she ends up just lingering.she cant get anything from me.
chrissiecutie3: is she still bothering u?
Roselle Papas: anu doesn't want to deal with her pero habol nang habol
Roselle Papas: not anymore
chrissiecutie3: grabeh
chrissiecutie3: i admire u for trusting anu so much

i am beginning to question my love for him. is he really the one for me? is he going to make me happy? is he who God wants for me? God, please guide my heart and let me truly love someone and not feel any hurt or not expect anything in return.

AnOTHER SENSIBLE CHAT... including some remarks about FILIPINAS

Tony Fiorelli: hi tina
Tony Fiorelli: whr r u
chrissiecutie3: hello there
chrissiecutie3: office
Tony Fiorelli: let me see u babe
chrissiecutie3: only for a little while ok
Tony Fiorelli has started viewing your webcam.

chrissiecutie3: just another day
chrissiecutie3: by the way, i might get an offer in henan
Tony Fiorelli: henan iswhere
chrissiecutie3: just on top og hubei
chrissiecutie3: below beijing
chrissiecutie3:
Tony Fiorelli: why not try beijing or guangzhou babe
chrissiecutie3: beijing will be close
Tony Fiorelli: or shanghai
Tony Fiorelli: go to these big cities
chrissiecutie3: those are the only offers for now
Tony Fiorelli: they treat u well and pay u well too
chrissiecutie3: its not that easy when ur here
chrissiecutie3: i can do that when im already in china
chrissiecutie3:
chrissiecutie3: they are strict
chrissiecutie3: in issuing visas
Tony Fiorelli: really
chrissiecutie3: so since an employer will be here to interview people on feb 24 i can just grab that first
Tony Fiorelli: have u got chinese visa now
chrissiecutie3: none
Tony Fiorelli: thats bad
chrissiecutie3: so i just decided to go thru an agency for a surer approach
chrissiecutie3: rather than spending for nothing sure
Tony Fiorelli: sorry got disconnected
chrissiecutie3: ok
Tony Fiorelli: why u wanna go china
Tony Fiorelli: is the work in phils so bad???
Tony Fiorelli: why u dont like to be in yr own country dear?
chrissiecutie3: low pay
Tony Fiorelli: wait
chrissiecutie3: the only work with ok pay is call center
chrissiecutie3: and u have to work on a night shift
chrissiecutie3: and i like to travel
Tony Fiorelli: ok
Tony Fiorelli: sorry
Tony Fiorelli: i am back
Tony Fiorelli: tina
chrissiecutie3: im getting lonely
Tony Fiorelli: u dont plan to get married????
chrissiecutie3: who?
Tony Fiorelli: you
chrissiecutie3: no
chrissiecutie3: who will i marry?
Tony Fiorelli: can i interfere into yr private life????
Tony Fiorelli: an advice and a request
chrissiecutie3: ok
Tony Fiorelli: dont kill me ok
Tony Fiorelli: promise?
chrissiecutie3: why should i kill u? ur my uncle hahaha
chrissiecutie3: kidding
Tony Fiorelli: tina...i am not being racist or indifference
Tony Fiorelli: but why do u mingle around with the blacks????
chrissiecutie3: huh?
Tony Fiorelli: there are so many good looking guys in the world
chrissiecutie3: i havent mingled with them for a year
chrissiecutie3: since i left china
chrissiecutie3: i havent mingled with them
Tony Fiorelli: i am taling when u r in china
chrissiecutie3: well they are the majority
Tony Fiorelli: i really disagree with you
chrissiecutie3: why tell me?is there some sort of a secret
Tony Fiorelli: and a request please
chrissiecutie3: sure
chrissiecutie3: go ahead
Tony Fiorelli: go for whites
Tony Fiorelli: they r more decent
Tony Fiorelli: they will give you beautiful children
chrissiecutie3: coming from a man who has travelled the world, i guess i should follow that
chrissiecutie3: hahaha
Tony Fiorelli: good hereditary
chrissiecutie3: that is sensible
chrissiecutie3: and u know what i discovered?
Tony Fiorelli: think deeply dear
chrissiecutie3: the blacks just USE people
chrissiecutie3: now thats a bold remark
Tony Fiorelli: let the blacks get blacks
chrissiecutie3: LOL
Tony Fiorelli: they r made for each other
Tony Fiorelli: they smell very bad too dear
chrissiecutie3: true
Tony Fiorelli: unless its american rich black who r celebrities
Tony Fiorelli: they smell sweet
Tony Fiorelli: i am sure
chrissiecutie3: uncle told me that too
chrissiecutie3: my real uncle
chrissiecutie3: in the US
Tony Fiorelli: think Tina
Tony Fiorelli: think of every action u do
chrissiecutie3: when he saw my pic with my african ex, he asked, "is he black american?"
chrissiecutie3: then i said,"no"
chrissiecutie3: he said,"oh.."
Tony Fiorelli: forget alll these ghanaian
Tony Fiorelli: nigerians
Tony Fiorelli: chadsiaqns
Tony Fiorelli: chadians
Tony Fiorelli: sudanese etc
chrissiecutie3: wahahaha
Tony Fiorelli: dont mingle and give yr self to these kind of people
chrissiecutie3: sure sj, thats easy to do
Tony Fiorelli: go for americans white, englishman,australian,italian
chrissiecutie3: italian always makes me crave for pasta
chrissiecutie3: tomato yum
chrissiecutie3: LOL
Tony Fiorelli: meet me agian in gzh
chrissiecutie3: sure
Tony Fiorelli: i will take u to the best italian resto
chrissiecutie3: its gonna happen once i get the job
chrissiecutie3: omg thats exciting!
chrissiecutie3: tell me ur most honest opinion about filipinos
chrissiecutie3: based on what u hear and what u see
Tony Fiorelli: i love filipinas
Tony Fiorelli: i dislike filipinos
chrissiecutie3: dont u think they are the same?
Tony Fiorelli: filipinas i love but terms and conditions applied
Tony Fiorelli: some woman are dirty
Tony Fiorelli: thir mind really works dirty
chrissiecutie3: hahaha
Tony Fiorelli: money...money....money.....only by any means
chrissiecutie3: people are so interesting in general
Tony Fiorelli: yeah i agree
Tony Fiorelli: they r happy go lucky
chrissiecutie3: u know the most interesting philosphies i found in the people from the province here in the philippines
Tony Fiorelli: only if they have money and if they can get credit and some borrowings
Tony Fiorelli: hahahahahaha
Tony Fiorelli: the worst thing abt filipinas...their wishes are never ending
chrissiecutie3: but u know honey there is a root cause as to why SOME filipinas become like that
Tony Fiorelli: they demand and they want and want and want
chrissiecutie3: its a case to case basis but
chrissiecutie3: most are victims of
Tony Fiorelli: thye are taught to live luxurious even though they dont have
Tony Fiorelli: style come first
chrissiecutie3: 1. education or miseducation
chrissiecutie3: 2. family
chrissiecutie3: 3. peer pressure
Tony Fiorelli: some mistakes are becoz of the american base
chrissiecutie3: oh that makes sense too
Tony Fiorelli: and spanish descendants
chrissiecutie3: like my friend that i dont really wanna mingle with nowadays
chrissiecutie3: hey
chrissiecutie3: she's a perfect example of a 'social climber'
Tony Fiorelli: even though u r broke and dont have rice to cook at home....u have to come out fresh and good smell and good dressed to be able to hook and get money
chrissiecutie3: but those are women u find in particular places
chrissiecutie3: not all.
chrissiecutie3: right?
chrissiecutie3: thats why its not fair to be a FILIPINA
chrissiecutie3: for women like me
Tony Fiorelli: but a lot of families are dependant on the income of these kind of woman
chrissiecutie3: and the others who are making their marks in the world without HOOKING
Tony Fiorelli: the mother the father the sister the brother
chrissiecutie3: god i heard that a thousand times
chrissiecutie3: from foreigners
Tony Fiorelli: filipinos rich people only get rich from corruptions and connections
chrissiecutie3: so now u know why WE want to LEAVE?
Tony Fiorelli: there is no pure pure businessman
chrissiecutie3: see?
chrissiecutie3: the answers are coming from u
Tony Fiorelli: hahahahhahaa
Tony Fiorelli: but u r just concern only with a job and simple living dear
chrissiecutie3: now that u urself tell me what u have observed not living here, what should someone who has lived here have to say? right?
Tony Fiorelli: brb

Things really are different when you see them from afar, like an attire displayed at the store that you have been eyeing all this time. It may sometimes seem as if it's really what your heart is yearning for. It may look so nice and shiny. But these are just on the outside. Things maybe different when you are already in the situation. You may find it good or bad. I wanted to become a copywriter. It looked ideal because I love to write. But when I tried it I didn't like it. In fact, I tried to escape the last project. Why did I turn down the copywriting job? Here are the facts:

1) I had to start with a meager pay of P12,000.

2) You won't full creative freedom because your task is just to follow the client specifics. Wait, I thought it's a creavtive job? Turns out that you will really "copy" what they "wrote". You just have to add some flair to the words.

3) Deadlines. Even when you are about to sleep, you have to think about the ad (according to the client's request). It's not independent creative thinking. It's craft thinking.

4) You won't really have the artistic freedom because they will just edit edit edit. Shits.

the drew and i on valentines

chrissiecutie3: hey hey hey
chrissiecutie3: question
the_drew21: sure cuty how was the walk
chrissiecutie3: how many minutes was i away?
chrissiecutie3: was it an hour past?
the_drew21: seems like it
chrissiecutie3: i brushed through percy jackson book
chrissiecutie3: that lightning thief
the_drew21: did you like it
chrissiecutie3: yes
chrissiecutie3: i love the gods
chrissiecutie3: i love greek mythology
the_drew21: me to
the_drew21: too
the_drew21: you at the cafe again
chrissiecutie3: starbucks lang rockwell
chrissiecutie3: u been here ?
the_drew21: not at the one in rockwell
chrissiecutie3: nice scene
chrissiecutie3: have u seen the movie "valentine's day"?
the_drew21: no haha
chrissiecutie3: i think it's cheezy
the_drew21: cheddar or parmesan hehehe
chrissiecutie3: cheeze wiz type
the_drew21: haha
chrissiecutie3: with power-house cast and all
chrissiecutie3: and just talking about loooove loooove loooove
chrissiecutie3: i think im getting sick of it
the_drew21: yea they should just focus on the sex lol
chrissiecutie3: lol
chrissiecutie3: not even
the_drew21: wut u doin now
chrissiecutie3: readin about hephaestus and how lame he is
chrissiecutie3: thinking of going back to china to teach stupid chinese greek mythology
the_drew21: hahaha
the_drew21: someone is in a hostile mythology mood
chrissiecutie3: chinese are people to be hostile with wahahahahah
the_drew21: lol
chrissiecutie3: no i pity them because they are rarely viewed as people
chrissiecutie3: but they have a gdp huh
the_drew21: gdp?
chrissiecutie3: gross domestic product
chrissiecutie3: determining the rank in economy
the_drew21: ah, yea thats true
chrissiecutie3: u know some of my chinese students are smart
chrissiecutie3: its just the freaking language and some wrong upbrining
chrissiecutie3: upbringing
chrissiecutie3: gawd im beginnning to have a heart for them damn
the_drew21: yea and china has isolated itself from the world for alot of centuries too
chrissiecutie3: yeah so its their freakin paranoid fault
chrissiecutie3: haha
the_drew21: that rubenesque photo album on your facebook i really like that 2nd pic you in that white dress
the_drew21: your legs look spectacular in it
chrissiecutie3: pooof
the_drew21: hehe pooooof huh
chrissiecutie3: my friend just dropped by
chrissiecutie3: its weird, these coincidences
the_drew21: ah ok haha
the_drew21: is he/she still there
chrissiecutie3: no she left, she invited me to go with her
chrissiecutie3: but i refused
chrissiecutie3: im antisocial today
the_drew21: hahaha
chrissiecutie3: or its just not planned
chrissiecutie3: whatever
the_drew21: i been looking at that pic for the past few min i really like how you rlegs look in it
chrissiecutie3: god
chrissiecutie3: come on
the_drew21: yea you want to be left alone with you rmythology today haha
chrissiecutie3: i know fucking weirdo
chrissiecutie3: i am
chrissiecutie3: thats one of my bestfriends
the_drew21: guess you dont feel like being complimented today lol
chrissiecutie3: no
chrissiecutie3: like ur compliment?
chrissiecutie3: im fucking lost
the_drew21: now your found haha
chrissiecutie3: nyeh
chrissiecutie3: i feel guilty for saying "no"
the_drew21: did you like my compliment then hehe
the_drew21: well you dont always have to say yes
chrissiecutie3: there's something about saying "no" that makes me guily
the_drew21: if you didnt feel like going why go right
chrissiecutie3: ya but a few hours back i was saying that im lonesome
chrissiecutie3: hahahaha
chrissiecutie3: maybe im into a "guy" mode
chrissiecutie3: not really a "girly" mode today
chrissiecutie3: after all its valentines day
the_drew21: thats probably it
chrissiecutie3: sometimes i feel down when i dont know whats making me
chrissiecutie3: is this hormonal or something?
the_drew21: i'd say so, happens to me once in a while also
chrissiecutie3: like how often is once in a while?
the_drew21: cant say i dont count haha, every couple of months i guess
chrissiecutie3: mine comes weekly like almost every sunday
the_drew21: well i guess that just a guy girl difference thing
chrissiecutie3: girls are supposed to be moody?
chrissiecutie3:
the_drew21: thats how it seems
chrissiecutie3: i think girls are emotional freaks and they mull over trivial things
chrissiecutie3: right?
chrissiecutie3: like instead of "practical" things, they obsess over attention from their husbands
chrissiecutie3: or boyfriends whatever
the_drew21: or annoying their hubbies or bf's lol
chrissiecutie3: hahahahhaha
chrissiecutie3: but it IS 100% true
the_drew21: no to go back again but just wanted to mention that pic i like of you
the_drew21: i wacked off to it yesterday haha just wanted to share
the_drew21: its is very true haha
chrissiecutie3: i threatened my boyfriend this morning that if he doesnt text me when he wakes up, i will forget him
the_drew21: didnt u had a bf right now
the_drew21: thats why i dont want a gf right now im enjoying not having to deal with that stuff lol
chrissiecutie3: yeah
chrissiecutie3: i wanna play around myself
the_drew21:
chrissiecutie3: oh man im so dateless on a valentines night
the_drew21: i'd be your date if i was there
chrissiecutie3: i know right
chrissiecutie3: gawd
the_drew21: over here i really just dont feel like celebrating, first valentine single in a long long time so im just enjoying not having to do anything for it lol
chrissiecutie3: we could have enjoyed together
the_drew21: yea had some valentine fun
chrissiecutie3: yah im freaked out
chrissiecutie3: i just wanna go home
chrissiecutie3: and sleep and just forget about the stupid day
the_drew21: cant wait for you to get here
the_drew21: hahaha yra
chrissiecutie3: yes
the_drew21: its about 2am here but not tired yet
chrissiecutie3: i can go to my friend's place now but man, i cant snuggle with them or what
the_drew21: which friend
the_drew21: the girls haha
the_drew21: wish we could have some cam fun right now
chrissiecutie3: i wish ye
the_drew21: me too
chrissiecutie3: what time is it there now?
the_drew21: 2:03am
chrissiecutie3: wow
the_drew21: i went to a tough competition class today wen i got home ended up taking a 4hour nap woke up at almost 9pm so not tired haha
chrissiecutie3: and now u got energy
the_drew21: yea i even wanna go running haha
the_drew21: too bad you can help me release some of it
chrissiecutie3: i need to work out
chrissiecutie3: im obese now
the_drew21: not so much
the_drew21: i would like to see you with a sexy figure though
the_drew21: you can do it
the_drew21: little chinky is good too though gives more ass to spank too hehehe
chrissiecutie3: ass is no prob for me
the_drew21: think im gonna wack off to that pic of you that i like later like yesterday hehe
chrissiecutie3: my god, again?
the_drew21: hehe yea
the_drew21: not right now though haha perhaps later
chrissiecutie3: u know what
the_drew21: what
chrissiecutie3: i want to be an image model
chrissiecutie3: of slimming tea
chrissiecutie3: hahahhaha
chrissiecutie3: the "before"
the_drew21: go for it haha
chrissiecutie3: so i can make money with the fats
the_drew21: hehe
the_drew21: go for it
chrissiecutie3: there are no avenues whatsoever
the_drew21: what avenues
chrissiecutie3: to have that
chrissiecutie3: i want to have a convenient life now
the_drew21: true
chrissiecutie3: its my fault of having rich friends
the_drew21: hahaha
the_drew21: i have a couple walthy friends over there myself
chrissiecutie3: its not that im trying to keep up but i cant help but envy the convenience they have to themselves
chrissiecutie3: having a car for instance
the_drew21: but at the same time they didnt create their own wealth their parents did
chrissiecutie3: there u go, their parents did and
chrissiecutie3: my parents did no
chrissiecutie3: t
chrissiecutie3: ha ha ha
chrissiecutie3: i have to work for everything i have
the_drew21: my parents did ok for themselves not filthy rich but did ok but still working for what i got i give my mom money from each check i get to help with the house and stuff
chrissiecutie3: thats nice
chrissiecutie3: it will bring good
the_drew21: yup
chrissiecutie3: i give mom too
chrissiecutie3: so money is really an issue
chrissiecutie3: u cant just say, go and live life to the fullest because u cant
chrissiecutie3: without enough funds
the_drew21: yup and i send to my ex wife wen i can for the kids and saving up for wen my daughter is here and gong to school hahahaha but those are things i like saving up for better than just buying bullshit i dont really want
the_drew21: but i manage to buy myself stuff too wen i can
chrissiecutie3: i want all of my moves to be profit-making
the_drew21: yep yep
chrissiecutie3: since i dont have a family and i live alone
chrissiecutie3: i want to make use of things
the_drew21: thats good
chrissiecutie3: i hear a voice inside of me to venture into a business.... it is a risk i know but i kinda conquered my fear of failing
chrissiecutie3: i experienced being bankrupt
the_drew21: well u also want to be cautious dont wanna have it happen again too
chrissiecutie3: so i can cope with whatever life brings me
the_drew21: but u never know unless u try too
chrissiecutie3: exactly
chrissiecutie3: so i think those experiences made me stronger, made me have that inner strength and a risk-taking behavious
chrissiecutie3: r
the_drew21: i dont have the luxury though of just going for it anymore i still will go for it if i can feel i have to but still with caution being i have a kid to raise, i do kinda miss just going for it though but if its just you its much easier to be able to do stuff like that
chrissiecutie3: not really
chrissiecutie3: but still
chrissiecutie3: my mom is also my responsibility
the_drew21: true
the_drew21: same with my mom wen shes eventually old
chrissiecutie3: yes... hey im meeting up dad somewhere again.... happy valentines
chrissiecutie3: see u again later
the_drew21: alrighty and i need to get to bed hahaha see u later happt valentines cuty

TAlking with carl on a sunday

chrissiecutie3: nice flower
BUZZ!!!
carl pen: lol
chrissiecutie3: what time is it there?
carl pen: 10
chrissiecutie3: and people are going out?
carl pen: what people?
chrissiecutie3: lovers haha
chrissiecutie3: how is it there?
chrissiecutie3: dear im eating american burger now
carl pen: wow, poor girl
carl pen: eating junk al the time))
chrissiecutie3: no its just an exploration of this new diner
chrissiecutie3: its called grams diner, do u have it there?
carl pen: i am not sure
carl pen: i do tno eat out much
chrissiecutie3: what is the definition of american burger
carl pen: have no clue
carl pen: , just beef with something
chrissiecutie3: beef bacon and cheese and its super size with onion rings or french fries
chrissiecutie3: thats how grams diner defines it
carl pen: anhd what u eating
chrissiecutie3: i like exploring food or place from time to time
chrissiecutie3: exactly the one i described
carl pen: it is ok sometime i guess
chrissiecutie3: yeah
chrissiecutie3: its oily i use my fork and knife
carl pen: where u?
carl pen: ?
chrissiecutie3: grams diner
carl pen: and how u on laptop?
chrissiecutie3: what do u mean how u?
carl pen: how r u sising laptop
carl pen: they have net too?
chrissiecutie3: i have USB remember, i can access net ANYWHERE
carl pen: well, ya, but need to have a source
carl pen: or it is like cell phojne service?
chrissiecutie3: it is a cell phone service
carl pen: ic ic
carl pen: prety fast
chrissiecutie3: unlimited for a fixed charge
carl pen: and cheap for 20$
chrissiecutie3: every month
chrissiecutie3: yes...
chrissiecutie3: it can be cheap here in the philippines
carl pen: nice
chrissiecutie3: thats why its so alluring for foreigners to stay
carl pen: hahhaha
chrissiecutie3: i am looking around and wow the place is filled with foreign-looking people
chrissiecutie3: gosh the burger is so heavy cant finish
carl pen: umm, i can take a bite hahhahahah
chrissiecutie3: yes please...
chrissiecutie3: please finish for me hahha
carl pen: hahahha
carl pen:
carl pen: where is yirou cam, i wanna see yoru food
carl pen: where is my burger dear
carl pen: wow
carl pen: looks big
chrissiecutie3: ee
chrissiecutie3: eeek
carl pen: to much bread hahhahah
chrissiecutie3: bloated
carl pen: poor , u look full hahhahahha
chrissiecutie3: actually i got rid of the burger first
carl pen: do tno finish it pls
chrissiecutie3: why? hahahhaha
carl pen: to much noit good
carl pen: u are full already
chrissiecutie3: i know like m stomach can not stomach hahahaha
carl pen: ya
chrissiecutie3: and it is opening
carl pen: stomach ?
chrissiecutie3: saying brrrrb
chrissiecutie3: haahahah
carl pen: OMG cannot eat so much at once
chrissiecutie3: will not this anymore
chrissiecutie3: in my life
chrissiecutie3: it wont hurt to have just the piece of bacon one last hahahah
BUZZ!!!
chrissiecutie3: did u just see the bacon?
chrissiecutie3: hahhaa
carl pen: i was downstairs..sorry
carl pen: u had bacon? ahhhh(((
carl pen: pls smile
chrissiecutie3: ya, i took ur advice of not eating it
chrissiecutie3: sorry i am also talking to my sister
chrissiecutie3: she's young and i have to explain things to her
carl pen: oh sure
chrissiecutie3: so she will understand
chrissiecutie3: god im old
chrissiecutie3: hahhahaha
chrissiecutie3: shes turning 18
carl pen: hhaha, na, u still not old
carl pen: 18 young hahhahaha
chrissiecutie3: older than here
carl pen: indeed
chrissiecutie3: her
carl pen: well ya, still
chrissiecutie3: u become more grounded when u get old
carl pen: lol, true
chrissiecutie3: more realistic, more attuned to the basic needs in life
chrissiecutie3: when ur that young like my sis, u have more time
chrissiecutie3: to just think of the fun for the minute
carl pen: i knwo what u mean, they do nopt have many things older have to worry about
chrissiecutie3: and to do things because they want to
chrissiecutie3: man when i was young i was a theatre actres
chrissiecutie3: hahaha
carl pen: heheheheh
chrissiecutie3: earned P100 per show
chrissiecutie3: $2
carl pen: lol
chrissiecutie3: hahahhahah
chrissiecutie3: so creepy
carl pen: well, this is life
carl pen has started viewing your webcam.

chrissiecutie3: its cool
carl pen: u look like a doll
chrissiecutie3: come on
carl pen: veryt sexy
chrissiecutie3: dolls for us are american looking
carl pen: american looking what?
carl pen: girls?
chrissiecutie3: with blue or brown eyes
chrissiecutie3: yes
carl pen: eeewwww
chrissiecutie3: but never looking like me
chrissiecutie3: black hair
chrissiecutie3: black eyes
carl pen: ua re asian foll hahhahah
chrissiecutie3: asians do not appreciate asians
carl pen: long rich hair
chrissiecutie3: we want to look caucasion
carl pen: black
chrissiecutie3: an
carl pen: hahhahahha
carl pen: ya i heard
carl pen: if u live here, wouldbe more popular as asian
chrissiecutie3: i think so
chrissiecutie3: i noticed that with american idol crap
carl pen: hahaha, yup
chrissiecutie3: especially the indians
chrissiecutie3: they like kim kardashian
carl pen: and if u lose weight, wil be very hard to go places, wil be asked for dates, etc)
chrissiecutie3: hhahaha
chrissiecutie3: thats fun
chrissiecutie3: but just date, thats all
chrissiecutie3: just for company
chrissiecutie3: for the time being
carl pen: yup
chrissiecutie3: but really
chrissiecutie3: not husband thingy
carl pen: what u mean husband thing?
carl pen: if wil get more exposure, maybe will be easaier to find right one
chrissiecutie3: well im not sure to know a husband with those dates
carl pen: well, depnds how u meet
chrissiecutie3: ok how should i meet them
chrissiecutie3: then
carl pen: i donto know
carl pen: i mean , some meet in bars, clubs, some at work
carl pen: some through freinds
chrissiecutie3: i dont get men actually
chrissiecutie3: they want u to be close but when u are close, they want u to be far because u lose ur magic
chrissiecutie3: like duh
carl pen: i knwo what u mean
carl pen: they get bored
chrissiecutie3: i know
chrissiecutie3: like what, women are hobbies?
chrissiecutie3: we get bored with a hobby but nt with a person
chrissiecutie3: a woman
carl pen: hahah, they hug u , go out with u, taste, then they got all they wanted and they move on
chrissiecutie3: rude
chrissiecutie3: inhumane
carl pen: i know
carl pen: terible
carl pen: but notall
carl pen: some stick
chrissiecutie3: like they dont know the value of PEOPLE in general
chrissiecutie3: friends come and go but a wife sticks with u thru thick and thin
carl pen: in real love i think wil be together and not to bored
carl pen: well , many contemporary are not that bonded anymore
chrissiecutie3: yes togetherness is what counts and making things work together
carl pen: did u throw awaay leftovers
chrissiecutie3: me?
carl pen: ya
chrissiecutie3: i had the crew throw it
carl pen: good
carl pen: so u are relaxing today?
chrissiecutie3: yes,planning to stroll in the mall as cardio
chrissiecutie3: malls here are big
carl pen: alone?
chrissiecutie3: yes
carl pen:
carl pen: what si that lips cream for?
carl pen: dry?
chrissiecutie3: yah
chrissiecutie3: hahaha
carl pen: u need to be kised hahhaha
chrissiecutie3: when haha
chrissiecutie3: this goes to show my singularity
carl pen: i mean to keep lips wet
chrissiecutie3: sometimes i just wanna work even on sundays
carl pen: na, beter play lzy some days, to relax
carl pen: ua re swet and pretty and yo9ung, can relax
chrissiecutie3: in solitude
chrissiecutie3: haha
carl pen: well, u can find a date for movie or eat out
carl pen: easy i think
chrissiecutie3: i had that friday and saturday but sundays pretty rare
carl pen: u had dates last 2 days?
chrissiecutie3: friends
chrissiecutie3: friday from high school
chrissiecutie3: saturday from college
carl pen: ic ic, so no kisses on lips
chrissiecutie3: we watched percy jackson
chrissiecutie3: nah
chrissiecutie3: eeew
carl pen: eeew?? hahhahahha
chrissiecutie3: no the kiss eew
chrissiecutie3: hey im goin to stroll for sometime im going to sleep here if i dont
carl pen: well, depends i guess
chrissiecutie3: i'll be right back
carl pen is typing a message.
carl pen: sure

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ndilngué nasser:
ndilngué nasser: I'm back..went to buy smth
BUZZ!!!
ndilngué nasser: u seem to be away
chrissiecutie3: i bought at a convenience storre
chrissiecutie3: hahaha
ndilngué nasser: oh.
chrissiecutie3: tell u what i bought the whole day
ndilngué nasser: what did u buy?
chrissiecutie3: and the cost too
chrissiecutie3: ok
chrissiecutie3: starbucks white choco mocha - 130
chrissiecutie3: italian pocket - 95
ndilngué nasser: good
chrissiecutie3: pesto pasta - 70
chrissiecutie3: coke in can - 22
ndilngué nasser: haha
chrissiecutie3: how much is the total?
ndilngué nasser: that's much money
ndilngué nasser: a lot
chrissiecutie3: so tell me how much
ndilngué nasser: whats ur currency?
chrissiecutie3: around 300 / 7=
chrissiecutie3: say 50rmb
chrissiecutie3: just to make it through the day
ndilngué nasser: oh..50 rmb
ndilngué nasser: u don't cook?
chrissiecutie3: i can but lazy
chrissiecutie3: but tom i will go to the grocery
ndilngué nasser: ok
ndilngué nasser: hoe good are u at cooking?
ndilngué nasser: i wanna see u cook
chrissiecutie3: just like normal africans
ndilngué nasser: okay..cool
chrissiecutie3: back in 2006, i was with an ivorian
ndilngué nasser: where..in china?
chrissiecutie3: we lived together on weekends and cooked together
chrissiecutie3: manila
chrissiecutie3: so im used to african guys
chrissiecutie3: and their recipes
ndilngué nasser: ok, i'd like that
chrissiecutie3: its tasty more on tomatoes
ndilngué nasser: yeah..u're right
ndilngué nasser: i'm eager to taste ur food
chrissiecutie3: well im eager too with u
chrissiecutie3: u know what
chrissiecutie3: its so funny
chrissiecutie3: i once asked out a girl
ndilngué nasser: it is.
ndilngué nasser: yeah..
ndilngué nasser: what did she say or do?
chrissiecutie3: she kissed me right away
chrissiecutie3: anyway this girl is from peru
chrissiecutie3: and the first thing that she mentioned is that she'll cook for me
chrissiecutie3: there's something about women and their cooking
ndilngué nasser: and what is that?
chrissiecutie3: like men and their balls
chrissiecutie3: i didnt go
chrissiecutie3: i realized im not lesbo hahaha
chrissiecutie3: but she had tantrums huh?
chrissiecutie3: and some men like women with tantrums
ndilngué nasser: i see.u remind of smth too..what if a girl says she'll cook for a guy on their 1st date?
ndilngué nasser: what exactly does she mean?
chrissiecutie3: she wants to impress him
chrissiecutie3: how old are u nasser?
ndilngué nasser: 3 yrs ago..a girl told me that when i asked her out
ndilngué nasser: i''m 24 and don't even mind ur age
chrissiecutie3: i am 22
chrissiecutie3: hahahha
ndilngué nasser: hahaha
chrissiecutie3: thats cute
ndilngué nasser: u just told me u're 28
chrissiecutie3: at least shes not expensive to go out with
chrissiecutie3: how about jane?
ndilngué nasser: just like u too
chrissiecutie3: how did u ask her out? tell me the story
ndilngué nasser: i like girls..who are un their 27-30s
chrissiecutie3: ok
chrissiecutie3: so tell me urs and jane's story, remember, im ur writer
ndilngué nasser: the girl i invited out was from south korea
chrissiecutie3: ok
chrissiecutie3: wahahahahha
chrissiecutie3: did she have that thing on her underarms?
chrissiecutie3: hair???
chrissiecutie3: hahahhaah
ndilngué nasser: and she came from Australia..it's smth that happened longtime ago before i met Jane
ndilngué nasser: so..it's a long story
ndilngué nasser: and she told me she'd cook for me on our 1st date
ndilngué nasser: i was happy that day
chrissiecutie3: cooking is something that she definitely likes
chrissiecutie3: and whats the glory of cooking when there is no one to taste it right
chrissiecutie3: ?
chrissiecutie3: to appreciate it
chrissiecutie3: cooking is an art and art is to be appreciated
ndilngué nasser: i was the on to taste and appreciate it..that's why i'd like tot aste urs too
chrissiecutie3: ummm
chrissiecutie3: cooking is not my art yet hahahhaa
ndilngué nasser: she went back to seoul
ndilngué nasser: then u should learn
chrissiecutie3: yes, i think its interesting
chrissiecutie3: but u know, there is some deep psychological truth thats preventing me from cooking
chrissiecutie3: it is associated to food and food to fattening
chrissiecutie3: and i am a whopping obese person now
chrissiecutie3: its weird
ndilngué nasser: u just need to excercise
ndilngué nasser: and u'll be good
chrissiecutie3: i need an exercise partner
chrissiecutie3: of some sort
ndilngué nasser: ok, then come back
ndilngué nasser: and i'll be
ndilngué nasser: i'll show u how to work out
ndilngué nasser: ur body
chrissiecutie3: wow man
ndilngué nasser:
chrissiecutie3: i worked out before
chrissiecutie3: and then quit
chrissiecutie3: so i gained
ndilngué nasser: ok..this time.u're not gonna gain it back
chrissiecutie3: wahahahaha
ndilngué nasser: u'll even lose weight
chrissiecutie3: i hope
chrissiecutie3: dear which university are u from again
chrissiecutie3: ?
ndilngué nasser: china uni of geosciences
chrissiecutie3: chinese name?
ndilngué nasser: zhongguo dizhi daxue
chrissiecutie3: wait i have an idea
chrissiecutie3: maybe u can fish for some info for me if its ok?
ndilngué nasser: ok
chrissiecutie3: do u have an english department or something?
ndilngué nasser: yes..there is aan int'l edu school
ndilngué nasser: that hires english teachers
ndilngué nasser: it's an english dept
chrissiecutie3: ummm
chrissiecutie3: would it be ok if u like get some contact details?
chrissiecutie3: or if ur comfortable talking to them, tell them that u know someone who used to teach in a university in wuhan?
ndilngué nasser: ok..i will ask their contacts and talk to them
chrissiecutie3: wow that means a lot
ndilngué nasser: did u apply for any other ?
chrissiecutie3: anything to get my ass back there
chrissiecutie3: well that was the plan
chrissiecutie3: i hoped to go there
chrissiecutie3: and apply personally using my own money
chrissiecutie3: but i opted to save double the amount first so just in case it didnt work out, i wont end up broke
ndilngué nasser: u will get a teaching job if u're here
ndilngué nasser: there many positions..training schools in wuhan
ndilngué nasser: i think its a good idea if u can come early and apply for it..attend an interview
chrissiecutie3: the next school year starts in september right?
chrissiecutie3: i'll probably try to go there in may just in case
ndilngué nasser: yeah
ndilngué nasser: god idea
ndilngué nasser: good idea
chrissiecutie3: i'll try to lose weight first
chrissiecutie3: here
chrissiecutie3: so it wont be a shame to go partying there
chrissiecutie3: hahahahha
ndilngué nasser: haha
ndilngué nasser: i like ur weight
ndilngué nasser: u're just fine like that
ndilngué nasser: u don't have to lose weight
chrissiecutie3: nah
ndilngué nasser: or gain it
chrissiecutie3: u havent seen me lately
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ndilngué nasser: i see
ndilngué nasser: u're just fine...i'd take as u are
chrissiecutie3: hey u havent told me ur story with jane
ndilngué nasser: what do u wanna know
ndilngué nasser: u just ask
chrissiecutie3: how it all started
ndilngué nasser: Jane is still a lovely girl..but she's away from me
ndilngué nasser: well..we met..and we fell in love
ndilngué nasser: and then we got apart
ndilngué nasser: and we're still friends
ndilngué nasser: she is away now
ndilngué nasser: i am away now
ndilngué nasser: u know it, i know it, she knows it and everybody knows it
ndilngué nasser:
ndilngué nasser: just like u got away from that guinean guy..right?
chrissiecutie3: hey how did u meet ?
chrissiecutie3: oh thats a sorrowful story
ndilngué nasser: we met ..and i asked her out..and i proposed to her
ndilngué nasser: and she accepted..thats how we met
chrissiecutie3: where did u meet exactly?
ndilngué nasser: we met in wuhan
chrissiecutie3: which place?
ndilngué nasser: we first met in wuhan
ndilngué nasser: in vox
chrissiecutie3: she was with whom?
ndilngué nasser: nah..maybe with u.or another friend
chrissiecutie3: hahahaha
ndilngué nasser: def with u
chrissiecutie3: hahahahah
chrissiecutie3: so that was it huh?
ndilngué nasser: funny.right? that was et
chrissiecutie3: did u ask her for marriage?
ndilngué nasser: now u tell how did u meet with that guinean guy
ndilngué nasser: not yet
chrissiecutie3: ok
chrissiecutie3: heres our story
chrissiecutie3: i was with maria at the bar and i was having fun exchanging glances with the indians i was involved with
chrissiecutie3: then i lost maria and approached some african guys
chrissiecutie3: i happened to ask bajo
chrissiecutie3: from then on, he kept on asking moe and maria about me
ndilngué nasser: ok
chrissiecutie3: i was not interested until dec 20, 2008.
chrissiecutie3: it was a party and i needed a date
chrissiecutie3: i got a call from him so he accompanied me
ndilngué nasser: ok, what about that guy from togo?
chrissiecutie3: only to save face from that guy i was with who brought his gf
chrissiecutie3: HAHAHAHA
chrissiecutie3: he came in earlier
chrissiecutie3: he's my first in wuhan
chrissiecutie3: but...
ndilngué nasser: u left him
ndilngué nasser: right?
chrissiecutie3: because he neglected me. same problem i have now with the present guy.
ndilngué nasser: i see
chrissiecutie3: and a carribean guy came along, someone i really liked from the start
ndilngué nasser: i see..from Grenada
chrissiecutie3: im sure jane told yya hahhaha
ndilngué nasser: hahahaahaha
ndilngué nasser: no..she didn't
chrissiecutie3: who told u all about these hahaha
ndilngué nasser: well..i've done my homework..a lot of howework
chrissiecutie3: come on
chrissiecutie3: i know u know
chrissiecutie3: bec jane told me that u know my shit
chrissiecutie3: before
chrissiecutie3: hahahah
ndilngué nasser: hhahahahahah
ndilngué nasser: that;s right
chrissiecutie3: but it was pretty esp during smith's time
chrissiecutie3: and omg
chrissiecutie3: it was a horrible experience when i saw his girlfriend like am in some TV series like one tree hill or gossipgirl thing?
ndilngué nasser: ha..well
ndilngué nasser: it's over now
ndilngué nasser: leave it in the past
chrissiecutie3: im used to being the one knowing stuff about people and to console them but not the one experiencing it
chrissiecutie3: when is ur birthday nasser?
ndilngué nasser: Nov 6th
ndilngué nasser: u/
ndilngué nasser: u?
chrissiecutie3: january 3
chrissiecutie3: u are a scorpion
chrissiecutie3: jane' s birthday falls on?
ndilngué nasser: i ..huh..forgot her birthday..but it's in may
ndilngué nasser: 1982
chrissiecutie3: thats why we so match
chrissiecutie3: capricorn and taurus
chrissiecutie3: ya i remember
ndilngué nasser: yeah
chrissiecutie3: did she tell u that we clicked?
chrissiecutie3: hahaha
ndilngué nasser: she didn't but i knew. well u know about my past and i kow urs too
chrissiecutie3: i was in deep shit psychiatric help when smith left me for the 2nd time and she was one of the peeps on the rescue
chrissiecutie3: oh yeah
chrissiecutie3: hahahha
chrissiecutie3: hell i know
ndilngué nasser: and we should leave it that way..and see smth else
chrissiecutie3: yah i dont really care much
chrissiecutie3: haha
ndilngué nasser: good
ndilngué nasser: so u two clicked..how did u feel being with her?
chrissiecutie3: intellectual
chrissiecutie3: u?
chrissiecutie3: haha
ndilngué nasser: haha..good..me too
chrissiecutie3: hey can i share something?
chrissiecutie3: i feel bad again right at this moment
ndilngué nasser: yeah
chrissiecutie3: i texted my bf,"hey dont u miss me?
chrissiecutie3: then u know what he replied?
ndilngué nasser: what?
chrissiecutie3: "i have a client."
ndilngué nasser: what client?
chrissiecutie3: he's a masseur
chrissiecutie3: we just keep on fighting
chrissiecutie3: nowadays and its not good anymore
chrissiecutie3: and i dont even know why im stuck with a fucking masseur
ndilngué nasser: ok
ndilngué nasser: i see
ndilngué nasser: ok, it's to excercise room
ndilngué nasser: it's time to go
ndilngué nasser: excercise room
ndilngué nasser: we'll chat tomorrow
chrissiecutie3: ohhhhhhhhhh
chrissiecutie3: ok have fun dear
ndilngué nasser: u too
chrissiecutie3: happy to hear from u
chrissiecutie3: mwah
ndilngué nasser: me too
ndilngué nasser is typing a message.
ndilngué nasser: take care

Pink Ribbons

Chocolate cakes and cupcakes. All the sweet sweet things. Pink dress and a ribbon on her hair. It's brunette. Her attire so lovely. She gets off at a flower shop to pick some beautiful ones for her room. All things bright and beautiful in her cute carpeted place. Yes, she buys flowers for herself. In the absence of a guy in her life, she buys flowers. She calls it a sweet life because her sweetness just emanates from her. Flower shop. Chrissie's. It's a flower shop, coffee shop, and perfumery as well. The music is so lovely. So promising of a fairy tale. She's got a cleaning lady in times of dusty need and her cupcake assistant. She does almost everything though. And her scents are her original. Cute cute scents. It's set in China, where everything is red and yellow. Her lovely walls are pink and brown and a little bit of sky blue. It is different. It shines because it is different. Who hangs out here? It's the girls who want to be like Chrissie or the old ladies. But it's mostly a dating place. It's where you get to know a person and play "pretend". Where the woman dresses up so prim and proper and nothing hellish, everything in its place. Never shouts or nags and The Rules. It's really when u dont care about the world that you shine.

Dear God,

Guard my thoughts especially my thoughts, guard it from malice and paranoia. Please guide me in my endeavors and help me fix my life and find logic in things. Please don't let me fall into a pit of self-pity. Please give me the patience to wait. Thank you God for granting my wish for a beautiful partner. My heart shall be put to rest. God bathe me with trust and optimism in my relationships. Please make me trust them and at the same time, have the strength to be self-reliant. God I know that You will help me fulfill my heart's desires. I know that evil will not linger. Everything that I do will be now in Your name. I know that You have sent me to the world for a purpose and I will not fail You.

Dear God,