the sad vibes

it comes when you are about to lose money. you don't have savings. you hate ur job. you have no choice. life is not getting where you want it to be. you are questioning your existence and the reason why you are not moving forward in life. why, at the age of 27, am i still unhappy with what i am doing? i should have at least a car right now. i'm getting older with no direction, so it seems. i want and i need a direction. now i am channeling DIVINE INTERVENTION. i'm going to rise up from these adversities. could it just be the weather or the money i have or the lack of? it is largely because of my job considering that i am a career person and it's in my nature to be really 101% with it. impatient. yes, adrian my friend (a batchmate of mine who got closer to me thru facebook). i am impatient with my life as i expect something perfect from it. the thing is i have a choice. i have talent. i just need to determine where. i need to stick to something. i know i want to be well-known for something and i wanna be perceived in a certain kind of way. a colleague of mine said a while ago, "you're too emotional." what he does not know is that i am just lonely, uncontented with my life right now that's why i appear melancholic.