solitude

I live near the mountains, in Central China. Many people are in awe of this country. I live on the 24F of a hi-rise building. The furniture that I have is mostly green. They say green is the favorite color of the geniuses. I'm sitting on an apple green chair, to my left, a green shelf. Oh I didn't really recognize that there is, in fact, a plant that I just watered because I saw that it is turning yellow. Geez... Plants, nature, they symbolize beauty. The serenity, solitude, it's beautiful... to be alone... to be at peace with yourself without people to make life complicated, it's a dream come true. Seclusion, when people can't see you personally or when you choose when to or not to communicate, or who to communicate with at a certain time of the day,is actually a blessing. You have a certain gut feel about a person and you know that. Being away from them is relaxing. In this chapter of my life I learned something about myself. I am happy that I discovered something new again so that next time I may be able to avoid things that can devastate me. I just know now that I value privacy a lot, that I can't share a house with someone except maybe if I get a husband. I'm growing old and I have led a disastrous life, leaving a job for instance once I don't get what I want. I was about to make the same mistake a few days ago. Impulsive.