ang gulo ng isip m! (ur mind is not clear)

what keeps me awake at night is the thought of where i really want to be. i am a 27 year old confused woman who has nothing else but ambition in life but can't really figure out what it is. Yes, I am contented in this loft and i do feel like i'm living a posh life in this posh condo right in the heart of Wuchang District, Wuhan City, China. the only thing uncool is, my job. i'm an english teacher and what could be boring than that. i'm honestly overqualified for this post since I've been working in multinational companies in the philippines. i never pictured myself staying in the classroom and talking to stupid chinese college students all day, using the chalk and talking about anything, the mundane facts of life. i shifted from education to another course because i wanted to be popular, i wanted to be a news anchor, a newscaster, a talk show host. isn't that a completely high and idealistic job?? that was my first choice, "mass communication", but where are the mass comm graduates that i know of? they are doing all that behind the scenes thing that i am NOT into. duh. i want to be seen on tv you know. i'm a showbiz personality by nature. 'showbiz' as what my uncle used to call me when i was younger. jesus christ where the hell is my life going? i better go home. i can't wait to save. shit. no wonder my uncle got disappointed with me. ang gulo nga ng isip ko.