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Thank you so much for making me part of Solar TV. I am now a news reporter. I have to write though and thank God it's in English otherwise I wouldn't be able to make it. I'm watching "You Will Meet A Tall Dark Stranger". I know what's going to happen. Marriages will fail to last and at one phase there will be cheating involved just like how reality exactly is. Am I Samantha Jones and not Carrie? Can I not stick to one for real? I see myself fantasizing about other men even while we are having sex. I close my eyes while doing it with him and I see the sexy faces of my past sexual partners to make me come. The cheating works for me. It's what keeps me alive. I am not saying I want an open relationship. I don't know if I am ready to see my boyfriend have sex with another girl but what if? My boyfriend loves me so much but what is wrong with me?