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Thank you so much for making me part of Solar TV. I am now a news reporter. I have to write though and thank God it's in English otherwise I wouldn't be able to make it. I'm watching "You Will Meet A Tall Dark Stranger". I know what's going to happen. Marriages will fail to last and at one phase there will be cheating involved just like how reality exactly is. Am I Samantha Jones and not Carrie? Can I not stick to one for real? I see myself fantasizing about other men even while we are having sex. I close my eyes while doing it with him and I see the sexy faces of my past sexual partners to make me come. The cheating works for me. It's what keeps me alive. I am not saying I want an open relationship. I don't know if I am ready to see my boyfriend have sex with another girl but what if? My boyfriend loves me so much but what is wrong with me?

Regression

He can break my heart many times. He broke it three times. One when we first got together and had a long distnace relationship. Second when I was single. Finally, when I have a stable relationship. How could I give my kisses to this guy so easily and my heart? I always treasure those times when we would walk down cybergate holding hands. Even those times when he was already in India and he would call me. I remember the state of my heart then. It leaped, skipped, and hopped. It's so easy to just get lost in love. It's the most wonderful feeling you could ever have. I just hope that it turns bitter now.

BIG FAT boy in the hood

Four hours and a hot starbucks white chocolate mocha cup later... I got an idea of what to share. I'm from the East Coast and my values and lifestyle is different from this "boy" in the south. This boy in the Philippines has the laziest lifestyle and his friends even refer to him as "padoggy-doggy" (Filipino term for lazing around). He just plays with his Ipod Touch the whole freaking night or watches DVDs of The Entourage until the wee hours of the morning causing him to sleep all day. At times he would play basketball in the village basketball court. What a simple life, harmless and simple but disgusting for me! You talk to him and when the words get a liiiiitle bit complex he asks, "What's that?" Oh shit. You kinda' fight for your rights to watching what you want on TV and he zones out while watching the TV series you wanted to share with him. Oh well most are chick flicks so what he does is, he goes out and bombards the guy neighbors and invites them to drink. What do they talk about? All the mundane things of everyday living. Fine. That's what makes him an interesting subject for this post. This serves as an expose! Wahahaha!

I'm in the character of Carrie. She goes and carries her laptop around to write about her daily life. Well, with all due respect to Candace Bushnell, I'm taking Carrie's place in this place. I will be Carrie/Oprah and I will be tackling about real life. The overweight Carrie in the third world country, the Philippines. Well that's exactly why this blog is called the "Life of a Wannabe". I want to be like Carrie (the fictional character of Sex and the City) and beginning today I'm going to be the real-life Carrie. My life is nothing short of interesting anyway. I'm the young Carrie. I'm 29 years old and I'm reborn. There exists a column on the net and I am the columnist. Thanks to blogger.com. I have always loved New York and most especially Manhattan and I am going to post an image of the map here mwahmwah. I'm going to lead you into a little secret, there is a person who jumpstarted this newly-found image except for what I saw on TV. It's the recurring guy in my life, Joel. We started the tale back in '09 and here I am regressing a little bit, hence the need to divert myself and at the same time pour out every detail of my excitement. I know this is wrong and well it was wrong because I am never gonna do it again in my life. I'm never going to invite him to compromising situations anymore that will lead him on to mixed sex and love affair. Oh please...oh well he admitted last night that he is pursuing a German girl like allegedly so that should end it. That should be the end of the fairytale. Oh well, he's so undecided and it was all about sex but why am I writing about this? Is it because I am guessing that there maybe something beneath that? And why was it that when we kissed it was so passionate like we were trying to impersonate who we were in the past? Christmas was hard enough for me because he was around. Why did I let him in again? Was I just bored here in general. I am in a relationship right now with another guy. Is this because of my unexciting relationship with my boyfriend or is it because the ex just came along?

Chocolate Mint Spa

This is one heavenly treat for me and it's the definition of rejuvenation. My tired feet from carrying my "more to love" body. I thought about nothing but me, my body, it's just about feeling good, no pressure. I went inside and sat on the couch, they welcomed me with tea and smile. I scoured through the spa menu like I'm gonna order from some restaurant. Once I've decided, I went to my private room to put down all my things and removed my clothes. I went naked and got a towel then a lady assisted me to the sauna, that cubicle for one that can make one sweat. I turned the sand of time to 20 minutes of sauna sweat time. I put more water to the stone it gets hotter and I felt more sweat... I could feel the earth granting me my long-wanted perspiration and the melting away of aches and pains. It soothes my body and makes me say that every worry will be gone. I stopped when I already felt the suffocation. I couldn't breathe anymore and I needed air so I reached for the knob and opened the door. With my towel on, I went straight to the shower room already looking like I already have showered but from sweat. Shower wooosh! The feel of the lukewarm water running against my face makes me feel refreshed. I dried myself up and put on the robe, went to my room as the assistant prepared everything. She has not turned the a/c on yet and after the warm shower you wanted to feel the cool breeze from the a/c. I waited for the room to be cool and in a few minutes the lady touched my hair and applied the chocolate mint hair spa ooze! It smells like chocolate mint that you wanna taste it. The massage on the scalp was long and soothing plus the smell of the chocolate mint soothes you more. Euphoria euphoria for minutes. The massage went down from my head to my nape to my shoulders while I was lying on my back. There's nothing more I could wish for today.