i dont know what to think about this heartbreaking experience. it's like i am numb and i dont know what to think. some people are trying to destroy my relationship with someone i am happy with now. its again the ex's. it's all in the past. what is it with the ex's and what they are trying to do? i think i just experienced karma upfront. i tried to let my ex know how much i hate him for leaving me and i even told the present girlfriend how much i feel. the impact of relationships, of broken promises...of love and love lost. i am counting the days. it is the last day of the month, february 28, and something is not yet over.
am i questioning leonard's feelings for me or am i questioning myself? am i really happy with leonard? he can't even be with me on sundays when i am longing for a special someone. am i really happy with him? now that things are happening to us like this:
chrissiecutie3: i think i went through some karma..
Roselle Papas: why?
chrissiecutie3: an ex texted my bf... "i love u"
Roselle Papas: ohwwww
chrissiecutie3: inaway away ng bf ko yng girl and told her that he's already married then...
Roselle Papas: what girl? u are telling a story in the middle of it all
chrissiecutie3: i texted the girl and asked her if she wants that to happen to her when she gets married... and told her that she is also a woman and that she should know the feeling...
chrissiecutie3: the ex
chrissiecutie3: there are just 3 characters: ex, me and my bf
Roselle Papas: oh ghad...i went through that already
chrissiecutie3: ang sakit but....
chrissiecutie3: instead of breaking up with my guy, i just told him that he knows that i love him...
chrissiecutie3: at the back of my mind, "its his loss"
chrissiecutie3: and i know u went through this with anu's ex
chrissiecutie3: kailangan pala mabilis ka mag isip noh?
Roselle Papas: you have one million contradictions...i wouldnt know how to
Roselle Papas: react
chrissiecutie3: what u mean? where? haha
Roselle Papas: yup...
Roselle Papas: the girl or ex is still around
chrissiecutie3: the ex just texted..
chrissiecutie3: but..
Roselle Papas: wag mo awayin
chrissiecutie3: her last words were... "pagkatapos niyang makuha lahat sa akin, iniwan nya ko."
chrissiecutie3: yes hindi ko nga inaway
Roselle Papas: ohwww tagalog version
chrissiecutie3: teleserye effect yung girl
chrissiecutie3: baka katulong
chrissiecutie3: what happened between u and anu's ex?
Roselle Papas: nothing
chrissiecutie3: anung ending?
Roselle Papas: she ends up just lingering.she cant get anything from me.
chrissiecutie3: is she still bothering u?
Roselle Papas: anu doesn't want to deal with her pero habol nang habol
Roselle Papas: not anymore
chrissiecutie3: grabeh
chrissiecutie3: i admire u for trusting anu so much

i am beginning to question my love for him. is he really the one for me? is he going to make me happy? is he who God wants for me? God, please guide my heart and let me truly love someone and not feel any hurt or not expect anything in return.