friendly sex

sex and friendship don't really match you know. there's no such thing as 'friends with benefits'. there is attraction between friends but when you cross the boundaries it will feel different, you know. there's jealousy, there's confusion. it's different when you have sex with someone. no matter how cool you seem or how open you are, you still had it. you still did the deed, something you do to for lust or for love but not as a friendly activity. for the hell of being trisexual, i tried becoming friends with someone i was attracted to and someone i had sex with. it didn't work out you know. he called me 'bess' but no, i just felt cheated. this is crazy. i had this guy whom i call 'brother'. for years i treated him as a younger brother then something came up, we were never the same again. there's this guy that i intended to be my friend at first, we ended up having sex then boom! i became attached. he sort of became attached. i proposed a relationship, he rejected, i felt bad. it was over. i never spoke to him again.