this is IT.

my life. there's no turning back. this is it. this is the turning point of my life. i will go back to my country and start life from scratch. after 5 years of searching and failing, thinking and thinking, being too sure-footed and avoiding failure, i'm finally going to reach and focus on my dreams. i have daydreamed too much. i have been afraid too much. i've been having a vacation too much, dilly-dallying. now is the time to really be where i want to be--to be in my niche. i've worried so much on financial status and the fear of not surviving. now, everything is fine. GOD will be on my side. it's like an airplane taking off. my heart is racing... yes, i'm still afraid that nothing might come out but it's impossible. something will come out. if i only focus, if i only believe--i will be there. now i'm going to focus on working on my dreams.