i set myself free from that nightmare. yes, maybe we have such a big impact on each other that's why it just sends us the creeps to know about each other suddenly. we are both jealous and we both want to get each other out of our heads. there are people dangerous for you and growth like junk food and cigarette. there are some people who are good for you and they make you grow and have a better disposition. you are the one who creates your own nightmare--as smith said,"don't set yourself up for hurting." i had a warning but i still tried to discover it myself. i've already been suspicious at him before but i ignored it out of a need for someone... just for someone to fill up this loneliness that was not really there and that i have been magnifying all along. i feel fresh and clean with a different outlook that i'm out of the emotional rut-- the neediness. why are we women so needy? perhaps because we are like princesses. we expect a guy to serve us in the end and pamper us and men are the ones doing the work, taking responsibility. men are the warriors and the hunters so we shouldn't care about them that much.